I'm pretty Fantastic! Currently I'm in Disney World with my parents and we'll be here for 9 more days. I'm pretty much in a great mood 90% of the time. BUT it's at the cost of something very big.

I have lost faith in the power of love.

What's the point of love? If it's so strong that you would die for that person you care so deeply for, then what's the point if you can't conquer a distance that separates you? I believed that true love for someone could overcome anything no matter how difficult. Now, I'm not so sure I have faith in that anymore. And that's why I question the point of it all if it really isn't as strong as I believed.

As if that weren't emo enough, I'm kind of incapable of feeling it anymore. What I know to be real love, not that it comes easily, I can't really feel it towards anyone. Not even my previous engagement, who is the one who started all of this soul searching nonsense. But I should thank him because of all that I've gained from it. I've lost a lot, but have gained even more. And I don't really want to be with him again until he fixes himself and we can be in the same state. He shouldn't make me feel that love is pointless.

Why take the risk of swimming in the ocean with the sharks, when you can hang out on the beach with friends, play xbox and beer pong, look at and think about all the expensive cars I want to own one day, and think about career paths that lead to a job with Pixar? Well, if the right guy comes along, he'll be a dolphin. Dolphins can kick shark's asses .. did you know that? And when he comes it'll be awesome, and he'll fight to get me to believe again. Because only a guy who is awesome enough to do that can have me. Until then I'm hangin out on this beach, and I'm gunna enjoy life without all this nonsense! Because life is awesome, and I intend to live it to its fullest. And I don't plan on being a romantic again any time soon. It is not worth it.